fantasies so pretty so unreal Continue reading

today i do not feel so holy. I do not interpret the world in such a positive light.  “guilt cannot be forgiven. if you sin, your guilt is everlasting” it does seem that way. it seems like the event of… Continue reading

I don’t know i guess the real question is do i think my image in the mirror has more reality than my sense of self? what truth is there to my perception? what does it mean that i am always… Continue reading

there’s a perpetual transfer of information from god to me it says do you see the love? do you see the wonder? of those quiet moments, when the burden lifted off me.  ———————————- did eve abandon god, or god abandon… Continue reading

Is he mad? is he sad? why doesn’t he answer? should I just say goodbye, because he’s better off without me? and i don’t want to be something that makes people sad, or mad. better to not exist,  than exist… Continue reading

It’s a sudden change clean, preferred can I keep it? it seems like a simple thing to keep, really surprisingly simple, considering how elusive it had been to find. Continue reading

I don’t want to go there anymore.  crazy person– it’s okay. don’t condemn yourself it doesn’t’ help the ego says it does but i know better Continue reading

this is day one christ was born i love you Continue reading

I stand before a door that’s closed i watched it close somehow i’m the one  on the other side not letting me in i plead with myself i call myself cruel for leaving me here  isolated open up please but… Continue reading

My breath can warm a small space  I begin to not be able to breathe, though so warm. I exit The balance—keeping the space closed off enough to keep it warm, and  keeping it open to enable oxygen.  enough enough… Continue reading